Fear of Flying

Tonight I am restless, thinking about the business and our well deserved vacation this week. I have been up all night the past few nights reading, to try to tame the thoughts in my head that re circling around my aura. A lapop is a blessing, however it is a curse at the same time. It frees me from holding the thought I have in, but, keeps me up all night venting… As most of you know, I have just reeased the new fall line, put it on an incredible sale. Between Etsy, here, blogger and like 5 other social venues, I am finding myself wondering what is going on with the net while Im workig on the wreaths! I lay in bed, tossing and turning thinking about ideas that come through that I am studting in my mind from the anxiety of possibly not being able to remember those ideas in the morning. I think about random things as well, such as.. the dress that Michelle Obama wore at the inauguration made the artist an overnight success with people lined up around his block to recieve glimpses of his other designs. What can I do to get that discovery? That certain stroke of luck running wild digging me out of this (just above water) mode that is this harsh economy. I will turn once more andpossibly throw a leg over a blanket to think of Economic stimulous plans and how banks can fail and pay their executives top dollar and fly them around in corporate jets for private parties… and I dont have health insurance? I have been reading a lot lately, some is what I call Fundamental reading for pleasure purposes, and the other half of spare time has been developing internet media and design kills for a new business I am lauching soon in Web development and advertising. The Librarians now me by name as I stroll through their halls at least once a week. Then, Comes my trip this week, while I could not be more excited, nd anxious about seeing my family- experiencing the familiarity wit childhood friends and the comforts ofhomebase surroundings, I am distracted from my slumberess thought by listening to a loud jet engine pass over the house. This sound, so deafening that its hard not to think about anything else other hat the huge plan flying overhead… at 5 am?? I fly often, but everytime, I wonder what if? What if they lose my luggage again like they did on Christma Last year? What if the hurricane gets closer and we are delayed? What if it comes while we are there and cant get back in time for work??? zI know, I must sound loopy… itis 530 AM and I am still awake, babbling in my blog (which I love) about thoughts circling my path. Speaking of path, I just designed a website for my mom that you should all ceck out– its called YourSpiritualpathways.com- and its not quite where we want it to be, but certainly on its way. I think my lack of sleep has something to do with the tea I had earlier (: Thanks for keeping up with me- check out the wreaths if you get the chance… they are so fabulous! WWW.Wreathconnecton.com and feel free to comment if you would like- I could use some cushioning to me new fear of flying (:

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